I have been on an inner journey for quite some time now and can say that it is an ongoing work.

We all know that our personality or our ego is not our inner self, that soul or spirit that we are. It's rather the opposite, the fake of us. It consists of all of the beliefs and values which we downloaded from childhood. But what some of us don't realise is that we are aware of some of the issues that we carry. And we tell that story over and over again.

Our personality has it's hidden or unconscious issues too... Sometimes it's really hard to access or sense or feel our energy field, until someone tells us. Chances are we don't even realise until we start working on them. I thought I was a happy and babbly lady... How wrong was I!!! I have been trying to get to the bottom of some of the issues and eradicate them once and for all. I used breathing exercises and have recently watched the video with Barefoot Doctor how to access the Higher Self. And something just happened... I simply said I was ready to step into my full power and I asked to be shown everything that required attention.

Next thing I knew I was there back in my childhood at the age of 3-4... And there I was with a mentally disturbed guy who tried to strangle me... I remember my father ran out to help and I guess I got a SHOCK! There was a very strong emotional charge and a lot of pain. So because of that painful experience, I just vowed to myself to never remember that. And the thing that most of us don't realise is that we are still carrying those emotions. It's what's our whole physical existence is built of. We are what we think and all of those thoughts are attached.

Ever since after that experience, I guess I couldn't feel secure and safe. Sometimes I couldn't be grounded. As a child, I preferred to interact with animals and insects, than people. It's because my consciousness kept saying " People aren't safe!"

My mission is to inspire you and awaken everyone to their full potential! A lot of people will make excuses not to go or do something about the situation. Blame other people for something that has happened! But the thing is the moment you start blaming someone you give your power away! You give your power to that person! If I was to blame that mentally ill person for hurting me all this time, I wouldn't be sitting and writing this blog to you now guys! It's such an amazing experience to have been able to share my life with all of YOU. I have lived in my shadow long enough, having developed all sorts of negative and limiting beliefs like not being good enough, articulate enough, not being worthy of love, not feeling safe etc! I can go on forever! But my choice was to get rid of that shadow and I did!

It's very rewarding to have been able to access my inner world. And very liberating, too! I am grateful for every experience and, I guess, I am walking towards my life purpose. I am beginning to awaken :)

For now, I am wishing you all the most wonderful week! Love and blessings from my soul to yours,

Anastasia x